Wednesday, November 29, 2006

A moment of weakness.

I’ve dreamed all my life of nothing other than this life, but I’m lonely, and my drive is waning. Sincere happiness is something which has eluded me for some time now, and I am scared that I am losing elements of my character out here that I can’t really afford to lose. If I were to go to sea now, I don’t know that I would come back.

I am defeated.

1 comment:

Warren said...

hmmm, I experienced that feeling when I lived on Moreton Island for 3 years as a squatter near the lighthouse. It is normal to need both company and the great lifestyle you have. But let me tell you from experience the lifestyle is your base.. keep it! It will not leave you. But if you leave it and then the woman you left your boat for leaves you , then you have nothing and you'll know the true meaning of weakness then.